Last year of school and I'm regarding my intentions to do homework as a lost effort that can place energy somewhere else. Make sense.............. Basically decided to write this blog because I can't focus on reading Applied Cognition at the moment.
The greatest thing to learn is to be true to you. A recurrent theme that has been eluded to my entire life (of 22 years), but is just now being understood. So while I am making my way through this last year of Uni I am practicing what it is that I feel represents the true me. That me that I searched for this year and continue to learn about.
Since being home a lot of projects have been started, some have fallen away, and some have grown. Though the biggest obstacle I continually fight is that of fear. Fear of failing, fear of not being productive, and fear of not reaching my highest potential. In order to begin any of the following projects I had to remind myself that I can not give up even before I start. Sure it takes a lot of work to keep that motivation up, but when I do it feels great. In fact, it feels fucking incredible.
Lately I have been doing 30 minutes of French lessons in the mornings, yoga 2-4 times a week, hiking, attempting to start running, making pickles for sale, painting, cooking (a lot), having psychedelic conversations with like-minded people that seem to drift into my life bubble, gardening (the seeds have begun to sprout), growing sprouts in my garden window, hanging out with friends, reading, listening to podcasts, etc etc etc.
Granted at this time in my life I only have school to worry about, I am making the most of the time I have. Perhaps my cynical view of life assumes to much when thinking that most people need to enjoy their life more, but I can't help it. In today's overrun, exhaustive, technological society that becomes more impersonal every day, people need to take control of their existence. In order to reach their potential they need to re-evaluate those possibilities in their life that can bring about some bliss. Rather than going through daily repetitive motions we humans need to be challenged, we need to continually grow in as many aspects of life as we can. Especially y'all in your 20's, because once you shape your life to be ever-changing in a stable environment, only then can you be happy and content. And just to think, if we all learn this young, our lives when we are older will be even that much better. Gather knowledge, gather life, gather love. And most of all, be true to yourself. Be true to that which you feel is ultimately right within your entire being-no matter the effort, cost, time, losses or gains.
