No schedules and tight hips

Day: Saturday, February 15th
Location: Treme Coffee Shop- New Orleans
Current State: Not hungover

A whirlwind. That is the best way to even begin to describe what this past week- the past five days- have done to me. Being taken completely out of my comfort zone I have been placed into a new realm. As much as I feel I am out of what my "normal" surroundings are, I am quite at peace. Already there is a difference in my skin and the word anxiety can be used much less in my vocabulary now. In Los Angeles I always feel the need to be on a schedule and do things in a particular way. Being here that is not completely gone, but I have had to just roll with the punches a little bit more. Here in New Orleans the way of life is to live more in the present and I have been doing just that. For instance, I woke up this morning already thinking of how I wanted to my day to go. That I wanted to clean my car, do some work, laundry, yoga, and then get ready. But when I woke up, it flipped. Jordan and I did some yoga, and while he is currently napping I am here at a coffee shop getting work done before organizing the rest of my life. What I am learning from just going with the day rather trying to make the day is that things work out for the better. While I may not yet be showered, I have found this new coffee shop on my own and was able to send presents to my nephews for their birthdays. All in all everything gets completed, it just doesn't have to be in a set fashion.

Consistently I have tried to set my life into motion rather than just letting it flow. When I left Los Angeles a week and a half ago I had plans of where I wanted to drive and what days I wanted to be in certain places- and guess what- it all changed! In my life this has been a recurring thing, and I still don't know why I am trying to force anything anymore. There has to be a time when I will actually learn to let life lead me rather than me leading my life. I came to New Orleans to get away from what I have always known. I am not saying that life will be a complete 180 from where I was, but I know the experiences ahead of me will be more worthwhile than anything I could work 8 hours a day for and buy.

Another realization since I have been here is that throughout my entire life I have been doing just what I think I should be doing, not what I actually want to do. Weird to think about, right? I'm now considering this the need to develop the left brain-right brain connection instead of the mind-body connection. We grow up in this society going to school since we are about 4 or 5 and then are told to continue this progression into college. Somehow I missed the creativity train. If I knew then what I am learning now my life could have started in a different place-or at least post high school. That isn't to say that my college experience has limited me, but I just wish I knew what was important to me rather than what is important to society. Here in New Orleans I see people around me that have a love for the art they aspire to accomplish in their lives, and this brings me some pangs of jealousy and envy. Perhaps this is why my hips have been absolutely killing me.
What Are Your Hips Telling You?
Sure, I don't want to feel this in my body or to have these thoughts, but it is all something I must go through to get where I am supposed to be. Thankfully all of this creative energy around me is non-stop and the people I have met have been so pure. This is definitely a change of pace, but it is a pace that has ignited a spark. All I know now is that the possibilities are endless. I have the ability to do what I want, how I want. All in due time.